Follow up

  I made it through the zoo and now I hurt so much that I want to cry. If I could I would take a muscle relaxer and a pain pill and I would go to bed. After I have dinner I will lay on my bed on an ice pack. I really hope the ice pack will help.

 I am supposed to go to the grocery store tomorrow. I don't think that is going to happen. I have a hard time walking now. My hips and lower back are killing me. I guess I'll have to see how I feel tomorrow.

Will I Make it....

    Tomorrow I am going to try to walk the Portland,Oregon zoo. This will be a long walk and I don't know how my body is going to handle it. I have a really hard time walking around the grocery store so this is going to be a challenge.

  I could use a wheelchair but I don't want to feel disabled like that. I know that I'm disabled to an extent. I can't stand for long periods and I can't sit for long periods do to my back and right hip. I am going to just walk through the zoo and rest when need be.

I am doing this as a surprise to my daughter. She has been wanting to go to the zoo all summer. I hope she will enjoy it. I told her we are going to Portland so we can go to a art store my honey likes. She whined about the whole thing.

I will write again in a few days to tell you how the trip went.

Welcome to Menopause

I am 33 and have been put into Menopause which sucks. I had my right ovary out do to pain and cysts. Since my left one was taken out a year or two before it I was thrown head first into Menopause.

The hot flashes suck. It is a hot unlike you have ever felt before. It is so hard to explain but I will just say that it feels like you are on fire inside. Thank God for hormones because with out them I would be suffering through the hot flashes every day. The hormones help take away some of the hot flashes but not all unless you are have better luck than me which most people do.

The only plus about not having my ovaries anymore is that the abdominal pain is gone.

Miserable life

You know there are days where you think how can life get any worse and then it does. I was having pain in my lower abdomen for most of the month of November then all of a sudden my back starts hurting really bad on November 20th a week before Thanksgiving of all things. I end up in the e.r. on the 23rd and from then on walking,moving and sitting is just miserable. 

I know I have M.S. which is crappy and I also have fibromyalgia on top of that. I have never hurt so bad in my life as I have this past month. Today I actually got dressed and did my makeup so I feel kind of good but as the day has gone on I am feeling more and more crappy. 

I got the shot Lupron which is a medicine that slows the estrogen in the body and will shut down my one and only ovary to see if that is causing my pelvic pain and possibly my back pain. I guess I will have to see how it goes, so far it has been less than a week and no change yet.

I have been so depressed these last few months. I have just been feeling sorry for myself and I am stressed by the fact that I can't take care of my family the way I should. My honey has been so great but has also been hard to deal with sometimes because he wants sex and I don't .

I hope sooner than later I will be better.