Pain and Burning

So the last like week I have been having a burning in between my fingers on my right hand . It is a really odd sensation. It feels like someone it holding a lighter to my hand or putting it really close to a wood stove.

Now on top of that I am having pain and what I believe to be swelling in my fingers as well. I read that one possible issue it could be is from my Multiple Sclerosis . M.S. has a tendency to cause issues with the limbs of your body. I really hope it goes away soon . I know that I will never get rid of my M.S. but at least I can hope for some of the pains to go away.

Ovary Removal Maybe

I have been having bad pains in my left lower abdomen so much so that I went to the E.R. and I was given really good pain meds. Dilaudid works wonders. Anyway I found out that I have a small cyst on my left ovary. I have had ovarian cysts before but this one hurt pretty good. I have been thinking that it might be time to have that ovary taken out. I have had my uterus out because of Endometriosis. As of now my Endometriosis has not come back but you can't tell that unless you have a Laproscopic procedure which just sucks because they should have a machine that can see that so you don't have to go through unneeded surgery.

I know that having my ovary out might not solve my problem because I will still have my right one. Who knows if I will get cysts on my right but I am willing to take the chance since the left one has caused the most pain. The cyst that I had this time has really messed with my bladder. I was tested for a urine infection because of the pain I have been having when I pee. It has subsided for now but I am waiting to talk to my Gynecologist which takes forever to get a appointment. Anyway take care all.

Complaining

I have found that if you don' t suffer in silence sometimes you get told that you are complaining to much. I have found that to be true so I have tried to lay off saying everything hurts. I only say something if it is really bothersome.

M.S Another Day of Tingling and Coughing

      Today is another day full of tingling sensations. I have them in my arms and legs. The weird thing is when your body feels like it wants to jump on its own. I try to keep control of it but sometimes it can be hard. I also have not gotten over the cough that I have had for almost a month and now when I cough really hard I get light headed. 


I have been getting sleepy by afternoon and I try not to take a nap. On Saturday night I had a muscle spasm in my back and it was painful. It took muscle relaxers,tylenol and ibuprofin. I was so tired  on Sunday I could barely wake up but thankfully I have a great fiance that got up and made breakfast for our kids. I am very thankful that he was there for me the night before and that fallowing morning. When I had my spasm on Saturday night he was there and was rubbing my back and helping me stretch since he has issues with back spasms. I will write again shortly.

Suffering Not so Silently

   Now that I know that I have M.S. I have a harder time keeping quiet about the disease. I always think that if something is wrong it has to do with the M.S. diagnosis. I have the shakes a lot as time seems to go on and my brain does not want to work anymore. I can never think about what I want to say it just won't come out of my mouth. It has gotten to the point where when I talk I have to think so hard about the words that I am trying to say and by the time it does come out someone has already said it for me. I am so sorry for the people who are way worse off than me.

M.S. a Better day

                                                                    Another Day
Well this morning I am not feeling as good as I would like to . My left had has a prickly sensation in it. I am off balance this morning I feel like I am going to fall over every time that I walk. I am feeling so shaky to. I hope that I can make it through the day without falling asleep because I am really worn out.
                                                                
                                                                     A Pretty Good Day
I have had a good day no real tremors and the pain in my right hip seems a little better for once. I had this pain for over a month and I am surprised at how it has been today. This day has given me hope for many more good days to come. I also broke the news of my M.S. diagnosis to my Grandma and she took it really well. She wanted to know what the doctors are going to do for me . I told her that I am doing good for now so I don't need all the big medicines that the people with full blown M.S. have. The medication that most M.S. patients take are injections that have to be taken daily or a couple times a week. I am so lucky that I don't have to take those kind of meds yet. I have taken all my medications for the night and I am getting ready for bed.

M.S. Is the diagnosis now what.

                                                         So What Now   1/11/2012

Today is the beginning of the rest of my life. I was told today that I have Multiple Sclerosis but that it is benign but what does that mean that I am okay for now but what about a week from now or a year now. My doctor told me that he doesn't think that I need any of the injection medications that they give M.S. patients which I am taking that as a great thing.
I was reading that my benign M.S. could become  full blown aggressive and then it could stop but who knows because M.S. is unpredictable and you never know what the next day holds. If you have this disease you are supposed to live day to day and not think about what bad stuff could be in store for the future.
I am trying to process this information the best that I can and I feel like crying but what will it do for me. It won't make anything better. I always knew there was something wrong with me because my body has just bee falling apart over the last 3 years maybe more. I have had so many achs and pains over last couple years I always new something had to be wrong. I am glad to know that I am not crazy.
I got a lot of I'm sorrys today from various people that I told. I am glad that I have family and friends to lean on in a time of need. I guess that now I will just have to live day to day and not worry about what lies ahead for me.
                                                           The Day After 1/12/2012
So I woke up today thinking that yesterday didn't happen . I thought that I dreamed about it until my fiance said something about it. I was hoping I could forget that it happened but I guess it is like that big white elephant in the room it is there but you don't want to see it. I hope that with time I will just learn to live with it and I  guess I already have because I have been putting up with this stuff for at least three years.
I am tired today but that is because I took so much medicines last night that it made me extra sleepy. I tried out the new meds that my doctor gave me that is suppose to help with the pain in my right hip but so far I have not had any improvement but I guess I should give it more time than just a day. The new meds the doctor gave me are supposed to help with muscle spascisity. I guess it will help to loosen the muscles.
I felt something different today . I was riding in the car and my nose started to feel like there was static in it or pins and needles how ever you want to put it. I kept rubbing my nose but nothing happened. It is still happening off and on.

Now I am with my children and we are on our way to my mom's and dad's . I can't wait to see them . I have missed them very much. My mom didn't really tell my dad to much about it just so he wouldn't worry since he already worries about my sister and I a lot. I don't want my mom and dad to worry anymore that they have to about me because my sister is going through the hardest time of her life right now. Her husband is acting like a teenager and running around like he has no cares in the world. I feel so bad that she will have to leave her house move in with my mom and dad . Then she will have to get a job and she has not worked at all except for one day. She also has to put her daughter in a new school and take care of her while working which is a hard thing to do.

I told my sister about my diagnosis and it sounded like she wanted to cry but she is emotional about everything because of dealing with the ups and downs of her life. I wish I could do more for her than what I am doing but I don't know what I can do except be here for her and support her any way I can.
Now I am going to my Mom's and I will have to sleep on a air mattress so getting up and down should be loads of fun. My right hip area has been hurting for a month now and my doctor says it is all muscle and so he is sending me to a physical therapist. I really hope that therapy will help the pain go away. I feel like a 70 year old woman because it hurts to get up and down from sitting and I would love to not hurt as bad as I do now. I am 30 years old so I should feel younger than I do.
                                                                       
                                                            What This Day Held Was
So today I woke up pretty well I wasn't feeling to bad. Now that the day has ended I feel like I have been hit by a truck. My hip is starting to hurt more now than it has all day and I am getting shakier by the minute. I am getting pretty tired to. It was a busy day so I am worn out. I guess it is just about time to go to bed so that I can get some rest and hope this shaking stops.