Another Day
Well this morning I am not feeling as good as I would like to . My left had has a prickly sensation in it. I am off balance this morning I feel like I am going to fall over every time that I walk. I am feeling so shaky to. I hope that I can make it through the day without falling asleep because I am really worn out.
A Pretty Good Day
I have had a good day no real tremors and the pain in my right hip seems a little better for once. I had this pain for over a month and I am surprised at how it has been today. This day has given me hope for many more good days to come. I also broke the news of my M.S. diagnosis to my Grandma and she took it really well. She wanted to know what the doctors are going to do for me . I told her that I am doing good for now so I don't need all the big medicines that the people with full blown M.S. have. The medication that most M.S. patients take are injections that have to be taken daily or a couple times a week. I am so lucky that I don't have to take those kind of meds yet. I have taken all my medications for the night and I am getting ready for bed.
Sunday, January 15, 2012
Saturday, January 14, 2012
M.S. Is the diagnosis now what.
So What Now 1/11/2012
Today is the beginning of the rest of my life. I was told today that I have Multiple Sclerosis but that it is benign but what does that mean that I am okay for now but what about a week from now or a year now. My doctor told me that he doesn't think that I need any of the injection medications that they give M.S. patients which I am taking that as a great thing.
I was reading that my benign M.S. could become full blown aggressive and then it could stop but who knows because M.S. is unpredictable and you never know what the next day holds. If you have this disease you are supposed to live day to day and not think about what bad stuff could be in store for the future.
I am trying to process this information the best that I can and I feel like crying but what will it do for me. It won't make anything better. I always knew there was something wrong with me because my body has just bee falling apart over the last 3 years maybe more. I have had so many achs and pains over last couple years I always new something had to be wrong. I am glad to know that I am not crazy.
I got a lot of I'm sorrys today from various people that I told. I am glad that I have family and friends to lean on in a time of need. I guess that now I will just have to live day to day and not worry about what lies ahead for me.
The Day After 1/12/2012
So I woke up today thinking that yesterday didn't happen . I thought that I dreamed about it until my fiance said something about it. I was hoping I could forget that it happened but I guess it is like that big white elephant in the room it is there but you don't want to see it. I hope that with time I will just learn to live with it and I guess I already have because I have been putting up with this stuff for at least three years.
I am tired today but that is because I took so much medicines last night that it made me extra sleepy. I tried out the new meds that my doctor gave me that is suppose to help with the pain in my right hip but so far I have not had any improvement but I guess I should give it more time than just a day. The new meds the doctor gave me are supposed to help with muscle spascisity. I guess it will help to loosen the muscles.
I felt something different today . I was riding in the car and my nose started to feel like there was static in it or pins and needles how ever you want to put it. I kept rubbing my nose but nothing happened. It is still happening off and on.
Now I am with my children and we are on our way to my mom's and dad's . I can't wait to see them . I have missed them very much. My mom didn't really tell my dad to much about it just so he wouldn't worry since he already worries about my sister and I a lot. I don't want my mom and dad to worry anymore that they have to about me because my sister is going through the hardest time of her life right now. Her husband is acting like a teenager and running around like he has no cares in the world. I feel so bad that she will have to leave her house move in with my mom and dad . Then she will have to get a job and she has not worked at all except for one day. She also has to put her daughter in a new school and take care of her while working which is a hard thing to do.
I told my sister about my diagnosis and it sounded like she wanted to cry but she is emotional about everything because of dealing with the ups and downs of her life. I wish I could do more for her than what I am doing but I don't know what I can do except be here for her and support her any way I can.
Now I am going to my Mom's and I will have to sleep on a air mattress so getting up and down should be loads of fun. My right hip area has been hurting for a month now and my doctor says it is all muscle and so he is sending me to a physical therapist. I really hope that therapy will help the pain go away. I feel like a 70 year old woman because it hurts to get up and down from sitting and I would love to not hurt as bad as I do now. I am 30 years old so I should feel younger than I do.
What This Day Held Was
So today I woke up pretty well I wasn't feeling to bad. Now that the day has ended I feel like I have been hit by a truck. My hip is starting to hurt more now than it has all day and I am getting shakier by the minute. I am getting pretty tired to. It was a busy day so I am worn out. I guess it is just about time to go to bed so that I can get some rest and hope this shaking stops.
Today is the beginning of the rest of my life. I was told today that I have Multiple Sclerosis but that it is benign but what does that mean that I am okay for now but what about a week from now or a year now. My doctor told me that he doesn't think that I need any of the injection medications that they give M.S. patients which I am taking that as a great thing.
I was reading that my benign M.S. could become full blown aggressive and then it could stop but who knows because M.S. is unpredictable and you never know what the next day holds. If you have this disease you are supposed to live day to day and not think about what bad stuff could be in store for the future.
I am trying to process this information the best that I can and I feel like crying but what will it do for me. It won't make anything better. I always knew there was something wrong with me because my body has just bee falling apart over the last 3 years maybe more. I have had so many achs and pains over last couple years I always new something had to be wrong. I am glad to know that I am not crazy.
I got a lot of I'm sorrys today from various people that I told. I am glad that I have family and friends to lean on in a time of need. I guess that now I will just have to live day to day and not worry about what lies ahead for me.
The Day After 1/12/2012
So I woke up today thinking that yesterday didn't happen . I thought that I dreamed about it until my fiance said something about it. I was hoping I could forget that it happened but I guess it is like that big white elephant in the room it is there but you don't want to see it. I hope that with time I will just learn to live with it and I guess I already have because I have been putting up with this stuff for at least three years.
I am tired today but that is because I took so much medicines last night that it made me extra sleepy. I tried out the new meds that my doctor gave me that is suppose to help with the pain in my right hip but so far I have not had any improvement but I guess I should give it more time than just a day. The new meds the doctor gave me are supposed to help with muscle spascisity. I guess it will help to loosen the muscles.
I felt something different today . I was riding in the car and my nose started to feel like there was static in it or pins and needles how ever you want to put it. I kept rubbing my nose but nothing happened. It is still happening off and on.
Now I am with my children and we are on our way to my mom's and dad's . I can't wait to see them . I have missed them very much. My mom didn't really tell my dad to much about it just so he wouldn't worry since he already worries about my sister and I a lot. I don't want my mom and dad to worry anymore that they have to about me because my sister is going through the hardest time of her life right now. Her husband is acting like a teenager and running around like he has no cares in the world. I feel so bad that she will have to leave her house move in with my mom and dad . Then she will have to get a job and she has not worked at all except for one day. She also has to put her daughter in a new school and take care of her while working which is a hard thing to do.
I told my sister about my diagnosis and it sounded like she wanted to cry but she is emotional about everything because of dealing with the ups and downs of her life. I wish I could do more for her than what I am doing but I don't know what I can do except be here for her and support her any way I can.
Now I am going to my Mom's and I will have to sleep on a air mattress so getting up and down should be loads of fun. My right hip area has been hurting for a month now and my doctor says it is all muscle and so he is sending me to a physical therapist. I really hope that therapy will help the pain go away. I feel like a 70 year old woman because it hurts to get up and down from sitting and I would love to not hurt as bad as I do now. I am 30 years old so I should feel younger than I do.
What This Day Held Was
So today I woke up pretty well I wasn't feeling to bad. Now that the day has ended I feel like I have been hit by a truck. My hip is starting to hurt more now than it has all day and I am getting shakier by the minute. I am getting pretty tired to. It was a busy day so I am worn out. I guess it is just about time to go to bed so that I can get some rest and hope this shaking stops.
Friday, November 11, 2011
Energy I Miss You
I had a issue yesterday with my fiance because I wanted to take a nap. Being that I have Fibromyalgia I get really tired at times and I don't even have to really do anything the rush of tiredness just comes on all of a sudden and all I want to do is sleep. My eyes get so heavy that I have such a hard time keeping them open. I wish that I wouldn't get so tired because I have two children and I hate being so tired around them.
The tiredness feeling that I get is unlike any other. I have never been so tired in all of my life as I get now. All my body wants to do is sleep and then I get in a fight with my fiance because I want to take a nap but he wants me to help with his websites. Even if I try to stay awake I can't think about anything else. I hope to start working out soon and maybe I will get some of my energy back. My weight has gotten so bad that I know I need to loose weight and that will help with all my health issues.
Thursday, November 10, 2011
If You Are Worried See Your Doctor
If you are having unexplained pains make sure to go to the doctor. Even if you have been to your doctor several times over a month who cares. If you are truly hurting then get it checked out don't just suffer in silence. I have times where I don't want to go to the doctor because of how many times I have been to him but if I am truly in pain I am going to the doctor. Why suffer needlessly when you don't have to. Being sick and in pain is no fun and having no energy sucks. I would give almost anything to have energy again. I know that I need to start working out but the holidays is a bad time to start such a venture.
Sunday, November 6, 2011
Good News
I had to have a M.R.I the other day to rule out the possibility of have Multiple Sclerosis and the results came back as great and I don't have that awful disease on top of all my other problems. I am still in pain daily and tired oh so much. I am thinking I will have to start a new workout routine to at least try to make me feel better about myself and at least give myself a chance of healing some of my health issues. I just want to say out there to all my fellow sufferers keep your head up and don't give up on life or yourself.
There maybe a million people that don't understand how you feel everyday but just know that I do and I know that it is hard day to day but you can make it through. Talking with your doctor about a diet and exercise program is a great place to start to make yourself feel at least a little better.
There maybe a million people that don't understand how you feel everyday but just know that I do and I know that it is hard day to day but you can make it through. Talking with your doctor about a diet and exercise program is a great place to start to make yourself feel at least a little better.
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
The Silent Suffering of a Unhealthy Person
If you are like the many of people in the world out there that suffer from a illness that you can't explain or an illness that you have been diagnosed with but no one can understand how you feel except for the people out there with the same problem or problems.
I am a woman of 30 who has been diagnosed with Fibromyalgia, Endometriosis, Migraines, Depression, Ovarian Cysts, and Osteoarthritis of my knees. So it is just a little bit of a understatement when I say that I am in pain all day if it be unbearable or bearable it just depends on the day.
There is no one that I can talk to that can understand how I feel on a daily basis. I feel all alone even when I know that I am not and that just affects my depression even more. I wish everyday that my Husband could understand that I am not tired because I am lazy but because of my body telling me it hurts and it is tired.
I would give anything to have the energy back that I used to have but I don't think that will ever be truly possible. I know that I am overweight I have been for a long time now and I really want to work out more but there are days I am so tired. I wish there was a way to take all my pain away and I wish that I didn't have to live with hearing I am lazy or the dreadful sigh of oh god what's wrong with you now.
I feel worthless all the time and I don't feel good a lot of the time but I am a Mom and I have to be able to take care of everything they need because there is no one else but me to do it. If I do ask for any help I get a sigh and some kind of comment. I don't know if everyone else feels like crawling under a rock or wishing you could disappear but I know there are days when I do.
So to all of you that are suffering in silence because you don't want to hear oh what now. I try to keep my pain to myself the best that I can but I know I do complain because I might just like a little compassion or some sympathy for the pain I am in and maybe deep down I am hoping that someone would offer to take care of something for me so I could try to feel better instead of being expected to do everything when I am feeling extra cruddy that day.
For those of you who don't know this is extra hard on someone who used to be healthy most of their life and then one day it all kinds of falls apart. I don't want to go to the doctor all the time and I want to be healthy.
So to all of you people out there who suffer day in and day out from some kind of illness my hat is off to you and I hope that someday that all of our illnesses can be cured.
I am a woman of 30 who has been diagnosed with Fibromyalgia, Endometriosis, Migraines, Depression, Ovarian Cysts, and Osteoarthritis of my knees. So it is just a little bit of a understatement when I say that I am in pain all day if it be unbearable or bearable it just depends on the day.
There is no one that I can talk to that can understand how I feel on a daily basis. I feel all alone even when I know that I am not and that just affects my depression even more. I wish everyday that my Husband could understand that I am not tired because I am lazy but because of my body telling me it hurts and it is tired.
I would give anything to have the energy back that I used to have but I don't think that will ever be truly possible. I know that I am overweight I have been for a long time now and I really want to work out more but there are days I am so tired. I wish there was a way to take all my pain away and I wish that I didn't have to live with hearing I am lazy or the dreadful sigh of oh god what's wrong with you now.
I feel worthless all the time and I don't feel good a lot of the time but I am a Mom and I have to be able to take care of everything they need because there is no one else but me to do it. If I do ask for any help I get a sigh and some kind of comment. I don't know if everyone else feels like crawling under a rock or wishing you could disappear but I know there are days when I do.
So to all of you that are suffering in silence because you don't want to hear oh what now. I try to keep my pain to myself the best that I can but I know I do complain because I might just like a little compassion or some sympathy for the pain I am in and maybe deep down I am hoping that someone would offer to take care of something for me so I could try to feel better instead of being expected to do everything when I am feeling extra cruddy that day.
For those of you who don't know this is extra hard on someone who used to be healthy most of their life and then one day it all kinds of falls apart. I don't want to go to the doctor all the time and I want to be healthy.
So to all of you people out there who suffer day in and day out from some kind of illness my hat is off to you and I hope that someday that all of our illnesses can be cured.
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